When I asked him to stay

I did not think I'd be seeing him, at least for days (or even weeks) to come. When his smile grew wider and wider (and thus more colorful), I could only look back.

Oh oh, I heard that you can't control what your Heart feels, and desires for.

So I'm assuming that it is okay when he passed me by. And with the weight of the moment pressing me down, I guess he might not have even heard me.

And since I can't control what my heart desires for, I could have spoken other words instead.

Hello, Nareem Delina.

(now you have got something) To die for;

Selamat datang Asmara.

Hari ini saya bangun jam 1.34;- selepas menyambung nonton Dark Knight untuk ke-sebelas kali.

Hari ini saya mungkin akan pergi ke McDonalds dengan Abdul Lula (atau Abd Luls).

Hari ini saya rindukan dia. Dia, bukan Lula.

Oh. Selamat datang darah-darah Baru! mari kita semua tulis apa yang kita rasa (sebetul-betulnya), supaya tiada rahsia; supaya tidak bertopeng-topeng, supaya tidak ditipu-tipu. Untuk pendosa-pendosa di Mataku, 'If I live, I will kill you. If I die, you would be forgiven'

P/S:
Hani, Raja suruh aku update blog, sesuka hati dia. Ajaklah dia tulis sama-sama di sini, baru dia tahu erti tekanan.

When Satan Speaks

i heard the whisper:

now, go to bed, and never

wake up again.


so i replied; harshly.

i will go to bed,
and i
will

wake up again.



because there are so many people i am going to meet,

there are so many emotions i am going to go through,

and there are so many _____________________________



let Satan do the math.

i am going:
to sleep.

Con tutto il cuore, grazie mille.

a child drew a heart and colored it red.

why red?
can you tell me?

ah;
malam yang indah.

with all my heart,
thank you.

hello semua

:)

This is silly, but it thrills me that the time format of our posts has been set correctly!

Ehem. :)

If it matters, it's Greenwich Meridian plus 8 for Malaysian time (instead of minus).

Oh boy am I cheered up!

(Tetapi rindu tetap ada walaupun semua insectdan newt mula boleh bercakap)

The Cockroach talked back.

But I was awed, 'How could he have worked through such a distance?'

I only smiled. Because any sound would mean noise.

'All these creatures!'

Oh. I think, pleasing people is mot not an easy thing to do. It's tiring.

By the way, Fact of the Moment: The European smooth newt is also known as 'eft'.

See? These things.

Semalaman Kita berlibur; bila pagi Kami tersungkur!

Alhamdullilah.

Sesungguhnya benarlah kata-kata Tuhan!

:)

PS II:
Selamat datang pada Lina, dan Ika. Moga hadirmu di sini menambah cahaya!

Seolah mimpi;

melihat lincat berbaju panjang berwarna merah terang bersolek-solekan.

hello to you!

She has a secret.

The passion with which it is kept
leaves her feeling like diamonds.

The beauty from which it was let out
sets her afloat (above me).

*sigh*



Hello Lina.

Jeff, Sunburn can be good! Well it does come from the Sun, doesn't it?

Gehenna

Everyone needs to be ignorant sometimes,
for they will have to.

If they find the secret before me,
then I am the one who will shine.

Those who overjoyed with power,
they will taste the fall.

When all is said and done,
I tend to adore Sunburn.

*oh hello, Lina with all the 'catness.*

Hati juga Heart, bukan?

ahh, no matter the language,
we're referring to the same essence in which Feelings reside.

the mysteries of Love (in all its glory),
the cruelty of Pain,
and everything else in between.

(they say) the Heart does not lie, no?

oh, hello semua :)

Love

Ashq,
which the spirit feels without the intervention on free will, cannot be controlled by the person so affected, for the real source is God.

I feed on Love; if Love dies, I die too.

Of the Rain and the Violets;

When

will this

loneliness

be over?

Air Liur Basi

I was just taking a quick nap, because it was such a hot and humid day. I did not have it in my intentions to trip upon your dream (or by the way you face was contorted, it could have been a nightmare).

So listen here.

I fell in love with you. If you feel the same way, selalu selalu lah tidur atas awan (biru). Kalau tak suka, cari bantal.

By the way, you drooled in your sleep, I didn't.

The Masks

As compared to the one I quite like brought to live by Jim Carrey, these are different.

They are not green
(ironically),
or innocent.

Heh. I wonder how they came about with that power.
I'd like to scream "Take it off, go away!"

But it's not in my power to do so, is it?

Malam Ini Kita Berpesta (seperti malam malam yang sebelumnya)

Di keraian sama yang lama ujudnya sebelum bertatih kerendahan diri. Yang waktu muda diagung-agung seolah tidak mungkin berakhir.

Menyanyi berpimpin bintang dan menari dialun bayu.

Keraian yang aku larikan diri untuk menerjah dunia yang sebenar (sebelum aku dikejutkan yang keraian itu hanya satu mimpi; yang elok).

Keraian itu pestanya tamat esok. Atau mungkin esok yang satu lagi.

Yang pasti, siapa mungkin lupa mimpi keraian pertama yang cantik; seperti keraian-keraian yang tidak pernah terjadi.

Kumpulan Kumpulan Not menjadi Kord,

dan Kumpulan kumpulan Kord menjadi tulang belulang Melodi.

Kau, adalah segalanya.

seperti Notasi - notasi unggul yang aku perlukan untuk ensemble Orkestra kali ini.

PostScript:
1- Cuba tuk' singkirkan, haruman nafas tubuhmu!
2- Sehangat pelukmu, selembut belaimu.

Assumptions

Yeah yeah.

I am a process.

I am an overgrown bat.

But still you couldn't catch me.

So I listened to the same old crap a hundred more times.
And the crap talked back to me for about just as many.

I like dropping droppings all over you, because sometimes I don't like you clean.
Sometimes, I want us to be alike.

Oh maybe I just assumed that you would comprehend the ultrasonic.

Heck, I still won't let myself be caught though admittedly, I'll fly close-by.

Excuse me -ehem.

Excuse me for being selfish.

But if I have to pick,
I'd stand on the fence.

And If I have to jump,
I'd rather die standing.

I believe choices are what we made to believe,
kan Elena?

So go crumble your own fate and deny your own faith.

I'm staying.

Pelepasan daripada tanggungjawab

I contemplated between pelepasan and perlepasan, dari and daripada.

Anyway.

I think we are given the right to choose, every single time.

Say; I can choose to tell you that you have a piece of lettuce stuck in your teeth. Or I can just smile and defy the utmost desire to reach and get it out myself. Or I can plant all my energy into listening to what you are saying instead.

Or I can just look away. Heh.

But, with choices, you can't NOT make a decision. Like whether you want to allow yourself be kissed on the forehead or on the lips. See?

Afiq, things can be as wordy as you wish to describe. But the theme must be there (oh you know this best, I'm sure!). Use vital points. The strongest. :)

Mind your own business; you dumb-fuck.

Kontroversial.

Tapi aku tak benci kau.
Aku cuma takkan ambil tahu lagi.
Umpamanya, kau dah mati dan ditanam tujuh kaki di-dalam bumi.

Membenci benci itu amalan tidak sihat, bukannya apa.

PostScript:
1- Hani, kau bukan musician, kami tahu. Apa apa pun, kita semua sama taraf.
2- Cubaan menulis dengan pendek. How in the hell that you guys manage to write that short, Elena, Jeff?

Dua soalan;

Hello, Jeff;

Mainkan aku satu lagu.

Perhaps; Perhaps?

Hello, Elena;

Mainkan aku satu lagu.

Sway; Sway?

Hello, Afiq.

Mainkan aku satu lagu.

Elok; Elok?

Argh siapa Hani?

Dahla tidak tahu bermain (dan menilai) musik;

Menulis pon macam budak tadika!

ps: Tapi aku tahu menyanyi. Lagu Elyana!

Heart is meant by Serce

Cough cough.

Darn it
but
wait:


That's fine.

=)

Malam ini bercinta (seperti malam malam sebelumnya).

It's okay to answer your own question.
But questioning your own answer isn't so. At least not all the time.

Just as it is alright not to follow what people tell you to do, so long as you know that you don't know, and perhaps will never do.

Last Monday I was down with a fever.
The day I stop loving, would be the day I die.

With the sweetest smile.

No no. That did not come out right.
You get me, no?

Ysquare

well if I'm Adik,
then does that mean I have to listen
to everything you say?


not really.


oh Hello by the Way.

Kenyataan Hidup yang tidak akan kita faham (walaupun setelah Pippin, Treebeard dan Adreen, bertanduk)

Orang yang sihat; adalah orang yang tidak sakit. Orang yang sakit pula ada bermacam macam sakit.

Manusia pada asasnya; hanya menerima kenyataan dari orang yang sihat (baca: tidak gila, tidak sakit mental, bergigi rapat). Pada mereka, kenyataan orang orang yang sakit ini tidak relevan, tidak berhujung pangkal, dan mengarut.

Sihat dan sakit.

Konon lah ia ada beza. Manusia ini memang aneh. Mahu yang elok elok saja. Mahu yang cantik cantik saja. Padahal, kita sama, tiada beza. Padahal, Preference itu adalah abstrak dan misterius sifatnya.

Mereka tetap manusia yang berakal, berperasaan dan berkehendak. Cuma tidak sihat.

Adakah (read: banyakkah?) beza pendapat orang yang sihat dengan orang yang demam selsema? Jadi; boleh kah kita menuduh orang itu begini, orang itu begitu sesuka hati?

Yang aku tahu;
antara orang yang berlapang dada dan tidak dengki, dengan orang yang berhati-bermulut busuk, adalah neraka.

Mari kita bela kucing.

I still get sunburn on my toes

(even without sitting in the sun waiting for somebody to change the tires).

The rain falls on all trees, and clouds roam across all skies.
Why should we rule ourselves out?
Why should I rule myself out?

I am happy to let every drop fall on my face,
wet and cool.

And I've always said this (to Ina and Reen most of the time),
the world looks brighter after the pour.

:)


I just need to get a lotion for the burns. Geram tengok.

Addiction of Infectiousness

Breaking down all troubles into small pieces,
and lifting any gloom that has set.

If you do not wish that, then DO NOT for a moment let him (or her)

have the slightest touch on your hands
or speak in that voice with eyes so true

or give an unspoken promise of having it all again
when it is time for bye-bye.



p/s: Hani, tak, tak marah. :)

Satu soalan;

Afiq,

Siapa Jeff? Kenapa namanya selaras nama aku!

Tidak, jangan kau duakan aku!

ps: Elena, jangan marah, jangan marah :P

*Afiq: Ingat aku pesan; muka kau dan smiley hasilnya huduh!*

Hani. oh dan, mialystic; dia sudah mati!

Corazón means Heart, too.

The Gentlemen are unexcused from suffering because of The Ladies' cold, shielded hearts.
The Gentlemen should not stand as stone for centuries, just because that is what they are.

And the Ladies need not weep just because of a tear in the seam.
They too, need not build a fortress around their sole, standing, blooming rose just to keep the cat away (from taking a sniff).

The Gentlemen and The Ladies, cannot possibly live, or leave without the other.

"...To be sure, you knew no actual good of me--but nobody thinks of
that when they fall in love."
-Elizabeth Bennet

Post-Treble Tinggi diatas Akustik yang aneh.

Seluruh tubuh semacam gugur tanpa ikatan;

Rasanya aneh betul.

Persembahan akustik yang aneh. Setting bunyi yang aneh.

Post-Script:
Kepada Mialystic dan Jeff, blog ini untuk mengarut. Unedited post sahaja. Kalau edited post, dia (mungkin) bukan terus dari Hati. Ada pengaruh otak.

Aku menjemput kamu, kamu dan kamu, kerana aku suka pada tulisan tulisan kamu.

Dan aku rasa kamu, kamu dan kamu, adalah Jujur tanpa Topeng. Tiada agenda.

Ini penghargaan tulus dari aku.
Terima kasih, Friends.

Ketika Pertama Kali; Jiwamu ingin selalu. Ah.

Kegirangan / Kemurungan (disebab oleh Hati) adalah Placebo Effect yang paling besar pernah dicipta-cipta.

Kerana ianya tidak akan pernah kekal; dan mana-lah kau tahu bila ia akan berakhir.

Sila sedar ruang.
Oh tapi.

Kegirangan / Kemurungan (dari oleh Hati Yang Terdalam) adalah Real.
Oh dan;

mengapa kau tanya? Mengapa 2 lampiran?

Sebab aku suka Diversity. dan Kebebasan.

At least aku masih perolehinya disini.