Where are you;

When I need you the most?

Kenangan.

Pada ketika ini, waktu jenis ini, perasaan ini, pemikiran ini, state ini;

"Ah, tiada siapa yang akan dapat melawan Rindu!"

*

Kebenaran bersifat janggal dan aneh. Ia tidak akan kekal, walaupun semalam kau bermati-matian mempertahankannya. Pada waktu yang tepat, memang, tiada apa yang akan dapat mengubah pendirian dan kepercayaan-mu. Biarpun mati emak, atau mati bapak, degil yang bersumbukan perasaan tidak mahu mengalah adalah perasaan teragung di atas muka bumi ini.

*

Quoting myself, a few years ago;

(Pardon the bad english)

at last, after these agonising pain-to-death time, she has spoken. speak the words that i wanted to hear so long, clearly from her mouth. "saya dah tak cintakan awak. awak dah takde peluang langusng". yes. it is the words. it is. after all, im gonna continue living.

*

Hey. I love you. Nothing else matters.

:)

yang kau neh, jalan laju-laju, lari laju2, kau nak ke mana?

Breaking the Rules.

I've learned that people ruined their lives just because they are so Perfectly normal.

Or normally Perfect (whichever suits you best).

Life is a dull when you do all the things you are supposed to do;

In the end you realised you are nothing but boring.

Hence my question, your honour;

Is this what we call, Human is never satisfied and thankful?

I demand your explanation (please, if possible, not in a very hard way)

Thank you.

Sebab

rindu.

sangat.

macam mana?

sheesh.

hey apa intai-intai?
tak malu ke?


down boy.

(kau orang memang selalu fikir lucah pun)

One for my baby.

If this is the path that I must take, then the journey shall continue. Unlike any other blessed souls around me who graced through their study period, I was less fortunate. More often that not, I would be smiling and hoping that I'd made the right decision, and it would benefit me and my life.

Oh boy, they never did, those decisions!

Precisely.

**

I didn't really have much of a choice, did I?

Bloody choices.
Sheesh.

aku sgt mahukan itu.

just how much do i wannit??

i cried every night for it.

that's how much.

but, when God give me a wish;

would i still ask for that thing i always wanted?

fuck no i won't.

i would ask God to forgive all my parents' sins.

all my family's sins.

and mine.

and to be honest. 

that sucks.

1000

bila kau silap
aku tegur

kau rasa aku silap
pernah ke kau tegur?

kau ungkit,
1
2
3
4
1000

perlu ke aku cerminkan dirimu?

tak jadi.

samakin melarat.

i cant stop it.

Aahhhhh...

(If only that's a satisfaction letout from an orgasm)

tak boleh jadi neh.

tak jadi.

(entah bila boleh dpt ketenangan; abadi.)

Rock Fucking Roll.

Thanks for being there for me.

--

Let's cultivate change.

P/S: To my silent readers, I don't like you as much.

haha, aku cemburu la.
dekat dia, and dia.

i wish i could have the same thing;
the same feeling.

:)

A Message

Untuk kamu (kamu).

:)

MH726

He said, 'See you tomorrow!' Haha.

He said what?

See you tomorrow. Daa?

Huh? Kita kan dah nak balik!

Yes, he means, in Facebook-lah. LOL!

No. I don't want to see him. Not tomorrow. Not again.

Huh? Kau gila?

I don't want this to go any further. I want this to stop here.

I want to be able to forever remember him as THAT guy.

I want to be able to forever to tell my children how nice he is.

I want to be able to forever dream that he COULD be the ONE.

I don't want any of that to change. I want it to stay.

STAY.

Hence, no. I won't see him anymore. Not in Facebook. Not in real life.

Not again.


...

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Glitterati

"All I ever wanted,
all I ever needed
is here, in my arms"

"Words are very
unnecessary,
they can only do harm"



Well, that song moved me today.

(singing)

how long, can i go on like this;

wishing; 

to;

kiss;

you;

And all I really want from you is to feel me;

As the feeling inside keeps building;

And I will find a way to you if it kills me;

If it kills me;

If it kills me.

kita semua cantik kan?

yang buta tak semestinya tak nampak. yang nampak pulak, rata-ratanya buta. tapi,ramai juga yang lebih senang pretend buta. selamat katanya.
biarlah, mungkin lebih baik.

si bisu. si bisu apabila bersuara, harusnya menjadi suatu yang hebat. kerana dia bisu, kan? anticipation.
tapi hasil nya selalu pathetic. macam selepas disental tahi itik. bahasa nya menggegar dunia. inti nya, basi!

lebih baik kau terus bisu. sekurang-kurangnya tak menjadi perhatian murahan.
si pura-pura buta itu lebih bijak. mereka optimistik.buat tak nampak walau pun nampak. sebab mereka tahu, itu tak penting. tak perlu sesak-sesak untuk nampak.

dan mereka kau kata golongan inferior, tak ada future. well, that is your pathology.



penonton nya si tuli,
yang berkumpul dengan tuli-tuli yang lain. mereka kan hebat. mereka boleh nampak. dan mereka boleh bersuara. jadi boleh la bercerita. yang kencang-kencang tu.

satu cerita "kahwin". dua dengar "cerai" .pada tiga, kau bilang "curang"
begitulah kan, cycle nya?

Kepada Pembaca Pembaca Hantu,

Tidak kira di mana kamu berada,
Tidak kira dengan siapa kamu serahkan Bibir-mu untuk dikucup,
Tidak kira bilakah masanya hati-mu akan Mati di bunuh Intoksikasi,
Tidak kira, tidak kira.

Kami akan sentiasa berada di sini.

p/s: Majlis Penyampaian Hadiah, Hari Sukan Sekolah Kebangsaan Felda Nitar 1 akan di-mulakan sebentar lagi. Sila berkumpul di khemah rumah sukan masing masing. Cigku Yam, suami anda sedang mencari anda. Terima kasih.

That guy taught me something (else)

Ah, rokok ada lima batang.

Aku ambil satu.

Jadi tinggal empat batang.

Betulkah tinggal empat batang?

Kalau tinggal tujuh batang?



Jangan diprovok institusi minda.

Nanti porak peranda.

who would've thought;

the things that you bought
those ugly days we fought
those times you weren't caught

maybe you're thinking now.
(you ought)
to start thinking now.
maybe you're still the same.
(oh god)

suka hati aku la.

dah tak boleh lupa.

nak buat macam mana?

kau nak tanggung?

kalau tak mahu.

kalau tak tahu.

senyap.

biarkan saja macam ini.

sudah biasa.

Penahan dan rengekan ke-dalam Hati dari Kebenaran Semalam,

-- seperti "Apa yang aku mahu dari Perempuan-ku adalah Ketepatan Masa" atau "Hari ini sungguh sunyi dan sunyi. Semacam rambut manusia yang kaku",

kadangkala tidak lagi bermakna. Tidak lagi berasa.

Mari!
Keluarkan dirimu dari situ, dan tempuhlah Perjalanan-mu dengan Kaki!

Lesson Learned

Lukewarm is no good.

Hot is no good either.

White hot and passionate is the only thing to be.

Selamat 2009

untuk kamu semua

=)