Perjuangan

Hari ini, selepas lebih dua tahun,
Saya teringat akan kewujudan blog ini.

Dan hanya mampu tersenyum.

Kamu atau kamu,
Dan kamu atau kamu,
Boleh pergi jika kamu mahu,
Jika kamu sudah tidak perlu.

Tetapi kamu tetap di sini.

Medannya sangat luas,
Kadang kala harus berhenti mengambil nafas,
Tetapi tetap, wahai kawan,
Perjuangan ini masih belum selesai.

Bagus la.
Rindu.

:)

Biarlah kena niat dan cara. Kalau betul-betul sincere, tak ada muslihat segala, biarlah dalam keadaan apa sekalipun, insyaAllah, semua baik saja.

And always;

smile like you mean it.

kalau ada sumur di ladang,
bolehlah saya menumpang mandi,
kalau ada umur yang panjang...


tapi tak jumpa, jumpa pun.
dah mati ke?

Cough Cough

*uhuk uhuk*

Someone please kindly clean this place up.

Too dusty. Too dusty.

No good. No good.

*cough*

foolish love.

"To those wise enough to understand that sometimes love is nothing more than foolishness of childhood."

and/or

"The wise are wise only because they love. And the foolish are foolish only because they think they can understand love."

Now, ponder.

(By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept, Paulo Coelho)

Kawan kawan, tarik nafas panjang dan senyum.

Bad things, bad days come and go.
And the good ones do, too.

If something is troubling you, my friend,
it is only to remind you
that you are very much alive.

We don't know what will happen tomorrow,
let alone the days after.
But we know, that you want to end up with the one thing nobody can deny -
happiness.

Jadi kawan-kawan, hadapilah masalah itu (biarpun sehalus pasir atau sedalam lautan) satu demi satu, hari demi hari, dengan senyuman.

*insert Hadapi Dengan Senyuman clip here*

Semua yang terjadi, biar terjadi
hadapi dengan tenang jiwa
semua, kan baik baik saja.

(Walaupun, Jepp, walaupun Aizat yang menang Juara Lagu.) :)

Mungkin.

Why did we go?
Oh why oh why?

Hari ini Firdaus Sapidih telah mengingatkan saya tentang kewujudan blog ini.

Tak lupa, tapi perasaan nak menulis di sini hilang tiba tiba. Adalah sebabnya tu.

Signed,
Tanpa Topeng (dan tiada agenda)

p/s: Happy New Year :)

pelik siot.

people do just really say what they want.

that's not a surprise,

but when it comes from someone that you actually look up to.

it hurts, even deeper.

do you know that??

Where are you;

When I need you the most?

Kenangan.

Pada ketika ini, waktu jenis ini, perasaan ini, pemikiran ini, state ini;

"Ah, tiada siapa yang akan dapat melawan Rindu!"

*

Kebenaran bersifat janggal dan aneh. Ia tidak akan kekal, walaupun semalam kau bermati-matian mempertahankannya. Pada waktu yang tepat, memang, tiada apa yang akan dapat mengubah pendirian dan kepercayaan-mu. Biarpun mati emak, atau mati bapak, degil yang bersumbukan perasaan tidak mahu mengalah adalah perasaan teragung di atas muka bumi ini.

*

Quoting myself, a few years ago;

(Pardon the bad english)

at last, after these agonising pain-to-death time, she has spoken. speak the words that i wanted to hear so long, clearly from her mouth. "saya dah tak cintakan awak. awak dah takde peluang langusng". yes. it is the words. it is. after all, im gonna continue living.

*

Hey. I love you. Nothing else matters.

:)

yang kau neh, jalan laju-laju, lari laju2, kau nak ke mana?

Breaking the Rules.

I've learned that people ruined their lives just because they are so Perfectly normal.

Or normally Perfect (whichever suits you best).

Life is a dull when you do all the things you are supposed to do;

In the end you realised you are nothing but boring.

Hence my question, your honour;

Is this what we call, Human is never satisfied and thankful?

I demand your explanation (please, if possible, not in a very hard way)

Thank you.

Sebab

rindu.

sangat.

macam mana?

sheesh.

hey apa intai-intai?
tak malu ke?


down boy.

(kau orang memang selalu fikir lucah pun)

One for my baby.

If this is the path that I must take, then the journey shall continue. Unlike any other blessed souls around me who graced through their study period, I was less fortunate. More often that not, I would be smiling and hoping that I'd made the right decision, and it would benefit me and my life.

Oh boy, they never did, those decisions!

Precisely.

**

I didn't really have much of a choice, did I?

Bloody choices.
Sheesh.

aku sgt mahukan itu.

just how much do i wannit??

i cried every night for it.

that's how much.

but, when God give me a wish;

would i still ask for that thing i always wanted?

fuck no i won't.

i would ask God to forgive all my parents' sins.

all my family's sins.

and mine.

and to be honest. 

that sucks.

1000

bila kau silap
aku tegur

kau rasa aku silap
pernah ke kau tegur?

kau ungkit,
1
2
3
4
1000

perlu ke aku cerminkan dirimu?

tak jadi.

samakin melarat.

i cant stop it.

Aahhhhh...

(If only that's a satisfaction letout from an orgasm)

tak boleh jadi neh.

tak jadi.

(entah bila boleh dpt ketenangan; abadi.)

Rock Fucking Roll.

Thanks for being there for me.

--

Let's cultivate change.

P/S: To my silent readers, I don't like you as much.