Serce means Heart

2011-02-10T00:09:00.000+08:00

Bagus la.
Rindu.

:)

2010-11-28T23:32:00.001+08:00

Biarlah kena niat dan cara. Kalau betul-betul sincere, tak ada muslihat segala, biarlah dalam keadaan apa sekalipun, insyaAllah, semua baik saja.

And always;

smile like you mean it.

2010-09-20T12:03:00.000+08:00

kalau ada sumur di ladang,
bolehlah saya menumpang mandi,
kalau ada umur yang panjang...

tapi tak jumpa, jumpa pun.
dah mati ke?

Cough Cough

2010-06-21T17:04:00.001+08:00

*uhuk uhuk*

Someone please kindly clean this place up.

Too dusty. Too dusty.

No good. No good.

*cough*

foolish love.

2010-05-27T14:49:00.003+08:00

"To those wise enough to understand that sometimes love is nothing more than foolishness of childhood."

and/or

"The wise are wise only because they love. And the foolish are foolish only because they think they can understand love."

Now, ponder.

(By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept, Paulo Coelho)

Kawan kawan, tarik nafas panjang dan senyum.

2010-01-11T21:48:00.003+08:00

Bad things, bad days come and go.
And the good ones do, too.

If something is troubling you, my friend,
it is only to remind you
that you are very much alive.

We don't know what will happen tomorrow,
let alone the days after.
But we know, that you want to end up with the one thing nobody can deny -
happiness.

Jadi kawan-kawan, hadapilah masalah itu (biarpun sehalus pasir atau sedalam lautan) satu demi satu, hari demi hari, dengan senyuman.

*insert Hadapi Dengan Senyuman clip here*

Semua yang terjadi, biar terjadi
hadapi dengan tenang jiwa
semua, kan baik baik saja.

(Walaupun, Jepp, walaupun Aizat yang menang Juara Lagu.) :)

Mungkin.

2010-01-05T16:23:00.005+08:00

Why did we go?
Oh why oh why?

Hari ini Firdaus Sapidih telah mengingatkan saya tentang kewujudan blog ini.

Tak lupa, tapi perasaan nak menulis di sini hilang tiba tiba. Adalah sebabnya tu.

Signed,
Tanpa Topeng (dan tiada agenda)

p/s: Happy New Year :)

2010-01-05T16:08:00.000+08:00

pelik siot.

people do just really say what they want.

that's not a surprise,

but when it comes from someone that you actually look up to.

it hurts, even deeper.

do you know that??

Where are you;

2009-10-22T15:01:00.000+08:00

When I need you the most?

Kenangan.

2009-09-28T15:56:00.002+08:00

Pada ketika ini, waktu jenis ini, perasaan ini, pemikiran ini, state ini;

"Ah, tiada siapa yang akan dapat melawan Rindu!"

Kebenaran bersifat janggal dan aneh. Ia tidak akan kekal, walaupun semalam kau bermati-matian mempertahankannya. Pada waktu yang tepat, memang, tiada apa yang akan dapat mengubah pendirian dan kepercayaan-mu. Biarpun mati emak, atau mati bapak, degil yang bersumbukan perasaan tidak mahu mengalah adalah perasaan teragung di atas muka bumi ini.

Quoting myself, a few years ago;

(Pardon the bad english)

at last, after these agonising pain-to-death time, she has spoken. speak the words that i wanted to hear so long, clearly from her mouth. "saya dah tak cintakan awak. awak dah takde peluang langusng". yes. it is the words. it is. after all, im gonna continue living.

Hey. I love you. Nothing else matters.

:)

2009-09-05T03:33:00.002+08:00

yang kau neh, jalan laju-laju, lari laju2, kau nak ke mana?

Breaking the Rules.

2009-07-10T16:37:00.002+08:00

I've learned that people ruined their lives just because they are so Perfectly normal.

Or normally Perfect (whichever suits you best).

Life is a dull when you do all the things you are supposed to do;

In the end you realised you are nothing but boring.

Hence my question, your honour;

Is this what we call, Human is never satisfied and thankful?

I demand your explanation (please, if possible, not in a very hard way)

Thank you.

Sebab

2009-06-07T00:10:00.000+08:00

rindu.

sangat.

macam mana?

sheesh.

2009-06-05T21:55:00.004+08:00

hey apa intai-intai?
tak malu ke?

down boy.

(kau orang memang selalu fikir lucah pun)

One for my baby.

2009-05-18T22:23:00.004+08:00

If this is the path that I must take, then the journey shall continue. Unlike any other blessed souls around me who graced through their study period, I was less fortunate. More often that not, I would be smiling and hoping that I'd made the right decision, and it would benefit me and my life.

Oh boy, they never did, those decisions!

Precisely.

**

I didn't really have much of a choice, did I?

Bloody choices.
Sheesh.

2009-05-15T02:48:00.002+08:00

aku sgt mahukan itu.

just how much do i wannit??

i cried every night for it.

that's how much.

but, when God give me a wish;

would i still ask for that thing i always wanted?

fuck no i won't.

i would ask God to forgive all my parents' sins.

all my family's sins.

and mine.

and to be honest.

that sucks.

1000

2009-04-13T05:14:00.001+08:00

bila kau silap
aku tegur

kau rasa aku silap
pernah ke kau tegur?

kau ungkit,
1
2
3
4
1000

perlu ke aku cerminkan dirimu?

2009-04-13T01:14:00.001+08:00

tak jadi.

samakin melarat.

i cant stop it.

Aahhhhh...

(If only that's a satisfaction letout from an orgasm)

tak boleh jadi neh.

tak jadi.

(entah bila boleh dpt ketenangan; abadi.)

Rock Fucking Roll.

2009-04-05T04:58:00.003+08:00

Thanks for being there for me.

--

Let's cultivate change.

P/S: To my silent readers, I don't like you as much.

2009-03-31T10:57:00.001+08:00

haha, aku cemburu la.
dekat dia, and dia.

i wish i could have the same thing;
the same feeling.

:)

A Message

2009-03-30T12:20:00.004+08:00

Untuk kamu (kamu).

:)

MH726

2009-03-23T10:21:00.002+08:00

He said, 'See you tomorrow!' Haha.

He said what?

See you tomorrow. Daa?

Huh? Kita kan dah nak balik!

Yes, he means, in Facebook-lah. LOL!

No. I don't want to see him. Not tomorrow. Not again.

Huh? Kau gila?

I don't want this to go any further. I want this to stop here.

I want to be able to forever remember him as THAT guy.

I want to be able to forever to tell my children how nice he is.

I want to be able to forever dream that he COULD be the ONE.

I don't want any of that to change. I want it to stay.

STAY.

Hence, no. I won't see him anymore. Not in Facebook. Not in real life.

Not again.

...

Ladies and Gentelemen, Thank you for chosing Malaysia Airlines. Time now at Jakarta is 10.10 am. We will be leaving for Kuala Lumpur anytime soon...

Glitterati

2009-03-16T03:17:00.003+08:00

"All I ever wanted,
all I ever needed
is here, in my arms"

"Words are very
unnecessary,
they can only do harm"

Well, that song moved me today.

2009-03-02T19:17:00.002+08:00

(singing)

how long, can i go on like this;

wishing;

to;

kiss;

you;

And all I really want from you is to feel me;

As the feeling inside keeps building;

And I will find a way to you if it kills me;

If it kills me;

If it kills me.

kita semua cantik kan?

2009-02-07T02:39:00.002+08:00

yang buta tak semestinya tak nampak. yang nampak pulak, rata-ratanya buta. tapi,ramai juga yang lebih senang pretend buta. selamat katanya.
biarlah, mungkin lebih baik.

si bisu. si bisu apabila bersuara, harusnya menjadi suatu yang hebat. kerana dia bisu, kan? anticipation.
tapi hasil nya selalu pathetic. macam selepas disental tahi itik. bahasa nya menggegar dunia. inti nya, basi!

lebih baik kau terus bisu. sekurang-kurangnya tak menjadi perhatian murahan.
si pura-pura buta itu lebih bijak. mereka optimistik.buat tak nampak walau pun nampak. sebab mereka tahu, itu tak penting. tak perlu sesak-sesak untuk nampak.

dan mereka kau kata golongan inferior, tak ada future. well, that is your pathology.

penonton nya si tuli,
yang berkumpul dengan tuli-tuli yang lain. mereka kan hebat. mereka boleh nampak. dan mereka boleh bersuara. jadi boleh la bercerita. yang kencang-kencang tu.

satu cerita "kahwin". dua dengar "cerai" .pada tiga, kau bilang "curang"
begitulah kan, cycle nya?

Kepada Pembaca Pembaca Hantu,

2009-02-01T16:19:00.002+08:00

Tidak kira di mana kamu berada,
Tidak kira dengan siapa kamu serahkan Bibir-mu untuk dikucup,
Tidak kira bilakah masanya hati-mu akan Mati di bunuh Intoksikasi,
Tidak kira, tidak kira.

Kami akan sentiasa berada di sini.

p/s: Majlis Penyampaian Hadiah, Hari Sukan Sekolah Kebangsaan Felda Nitar 1 akan di-mulakan sebentar lagi. Sila berkumpul di khemah rumah sukan masing masing. Cigku Yam, suami anda sedang mencari anda. Terima kasih.

That guy taught me something (else)

2009-01-29T01:26:00.002+08:00

Ah, rokok ada lima batang.

Aku ambil satu.

Jadi tinggal empat batang.

Betulkah tinggal empat batang?

Kalau tinggal tujuh batang?

Jangan diprovok institusi minda.

Nanti porak peranda.

who would've thought;

2009-01-28T15:07:00.002+08:00

the things that you bought
those ugly days we fought
those times you weren't caught

maybe you're thinking now.
(you ought)
to start thinking now.
maybe you're still the same.
(oh god)

2009-01-14T23:15:00.004+08:00

suka hati aku la.

dah tak boleh lupa.

nak buat macam mana?

kau nak tanggung?

kalau tak mahu.

kalau tak tahu.

senyap.

biarkan saja macam ini.

sudah biasa.

Penahan dan rengekan ke-dalam Hati dari Kebenaran Semalam,

2009-01-13T00:43:00.002+08:00

-- seperti "Apa yang aku mahu dari Perempuan-ku adalah Ketepatan Masa" atau "Hari ini sungguh sunyi dan sunyi. Semacam rambut manusia yang kaku",

kadangkala tidak lagi bermakna. Tidak lagi berasa.

Mari!
Keluarkan dirimu dari situ, dan tempuhlah Perjalanan-mu dengan Kaki!

Lesson Learned

2009-01-10T21:46:00.001+08:00

Lukewarm is no good.

Hot is no good either.

White hot and passionate is the only thing to be.

Selamat 2009

2009-01-02T10:41:00.001+08:00

untuk kamu semua

=)

assudaahlah

2008-12-28T23:52:00.002+08:00

"Now this is what we call 'smoke on the water'!"

And the three (or some tales mention, four) bachelors kept waiting.

And since when did you include cigarettes in your meal?

(The man ate it like Rocky biscuits.)

While a teenage girl, sitting by his side,

And repeated, "assudaahlah" until the water turned cold.

Then the four bachelors went into the water.

And there went Mr. Flower, with a string broken,

Trying to cut off his own song.

...and it was never the same, I guess.

2008-12-27T04:06:00.002+08:00

The nights.
The dark shadows.

The blinding light came from nowhere.

I was trapped inside,
yet I never felt so free.

Given the chance,
I'd rather be in the vortex of the blinding light.

Let me express,
let me impress.

Even if I knew little,
at least I was just.

Moondance;

2008-12-26T22:45:00.000+08:00

if i tremble, it would be because.

oh warmth how you seep.
with each and every-
chasing away the coldness of the night.

understanding is an understatement.
it is more.
in every sense of every inch of everything, it is more.

*smiles*

i like defying expectations.

*grins*

moga kamu kamu semua sentiasa disinari.
(baik oleh lampu atau matahari)

sentiasa dibayangi.
(baik oleh pokok atau pelangi)

selamat hari sabtu dan seterusnya!
(baik siang atau malam)

:)

Jika

2008-12-12T09:19:00.002+08:00

jika berjarak halang
binalah jambatan
biar jujur terlintas kesan
sampai hati paut. dan parut

kau mahu aku bebas
dalam gelita suara terpipis
dan aku hanya sinarkan tangis
dan kau sirnakan tulus
tentang egomu yang terbaik

jika bertamu resah
hidangkanlah hikmah
bukan amarah yang memamah jiwa
sampai hati parut. dan reput

sebab kadang (kadang)

2008-12-11T10:56:00.001+08:00

Langit;
tidak senang-senang mahu Mendung
dan Mendung;
bukan suka-suka mahu Hujan

Mungkin;
Pelangi yang mahu muncul;
Atau Matahari yang mahu terbit.

Siapa tidak mahu;
Pelangi yang cantik.
dan Matahari yang terang.

Tapi aku;
tiada tujuh warna.
tiada Maha cahaya.

Tetapi,kamu; Langit.
Adalah keajaiban yang terbaik.
Yang mungkin terjadi.

Jadi aku cuma mahukan kamu;
Biar Panas, Biar Mendung, Biar Hujan.
Biar layaknya aku untuk sesuatu keajaiban itu mungkin sedikit.

p/s: Rindu is Overrated.

A skip and a hop!

2008-12-06T02:00:00.002+08:00

ahh, but alas.

it's no longer skipping.

it's racing.

ohh Hati ini~
shh, shh.

oh me oh my~!

:DD

"Carillon sudah sampai! Carillon itu sudah sampai!"

2008-12-03T05:51:00.003+08:00

Panggilan dari Tuhan adalah suatu jalan paling Ajaib, yang halus sikapnya. Dan Carousel itu tidak akan berputar, selagi kau tidak mula gunakan Tenaga dan Faith.

Carpe Diem, sayang-ku. Carpe Diem.

2008-11-27T21:38:00.000+08:00

and when you...

(hmm.. can it get better than that?)

Get these Blues out of me.

2008-11-26T21:21:00.002+08:00

For the only reason to grieve or to smile is the Heart. Bila Anthony Hamilton meletakkan jari di Instrumen Magisnya; meltutu-lah dan jeritkan "Drive me on, Honey!"

"I get so weary; every time the sun goes down" kata B.B King. Cintaku pada-mu; adalah seperti terangnya graffiti pujaan Kasih Sayang oleh kedua- ibu bapamu. Hujan membuatkan aku jadi sedih, but I know she's not going away.

How can I be more Spontaneous?

2008-11-25T22:43:00.001+08:00

ape lagi, yang kau mahu.

That Nite;

2008-11-25T15:33:00.001+08:00

I know 5 things about you.

I know your dream car, your forte sport, how you sleep, your everyday routine.

Even how many kids you want in the future.

It kind of slipped your tounge; but I can't help but to paste it still in my head.

Like Meredith said; they're 5 things no one here knows about you.

Contented? I am.

But 5 is not enough. I want more.

Like 2 hours. No, not enough.

I. want more!

ps: I know you're taken (not by me); but can we please skip that part?

Untuk Lincat (continued);

2008-11-24T17:17:00.004+08:00

Thank you for the positive energy!

I did something silly today; hard to say if I did it without thinking, or by thinking too much. (I'm well known for the latter.)

Oh it's drizzling outside!

Wash away, wash away.

Untuk Lincat;

2008-11-24T14:12:00.002+08:00

A.K.A adek no, hurm, 3?

You are the sunshine.

Because today you woke up so early;
even the earth forgot to rain.

You should do that more often, you know.

ps: Good Morning Sunshine must be better than Selamat Pagi Cinta. Total CRAP!

Good Morning Sunshine(s!)

2008-11-22T07:03:00.001+08:00

there's just something (different) about waking up (so very!) early in the morning.

selamat pagi kamu kamu semua!

semoga hari kamu disinari matahari dan dibayangi pelangi!

:)

2008-11-21T15:46:00.000+08:00

Some of my feelings keep escapin'
So I make it a joke

Nonchalant, I keep on fakin'
So my heart dont get broke

I'm in a big ocean, in a tiny little boat
I'll only put the idea out there if I know it's gonna float

So all you gonna hear is
Mmm mmm, mmm mmm mmmmmmmmmmmmm

p.s. Bukan aku la tulis yang ini!

Thay Are Changing

2008-11-17T06:55:00.002+08:00

typo, in the title.

a mistake, but not undone.

purpose, every letter serves one.

Do look up, now;

it is changing.

somewhere, over the Rainbow;

2008-11-16T14:24:00.000+08:00

Hello.

This is the proof of payment for your book. Thank you for all of your
assistance.

Could you do me a small favour though?

-- transmission corrupted --

I understand if it is not possible.

Alas, I wish you a great success! Thank you for all of your concern.

Good day!

--
Rgrds,
Afiq Malik.

Namakan, dua jenis;

2008-11-15T02:54:00.003+08:00

Still positively all-flowers-and-bloom-cherry-blossom-sugar-mints that put you afloat?

I'd call for the positively negatives instead.
You know, all the curse words, sarcasm, bitchy remarks, anger, tears. The painfully truthful slam-you-to-the-lower-lower-ground-floor-of-the-Earth stuff.

Heart juga, masih.

:D (bunyinya: fwiiing!)

One simple Hi

2008-11-12T17:52:00.003+08:00

Would make me smile.

One whole sentence like How have you been?

Would make me go crazy.

One simple question, say, hurm..

Are you taken?

Hello! A person is melting in this room!

All it comes from A simple Hi!

Kill! Kill! Kill!

2008-10-30T03:41:00.002+08:00

It's a fresh air when they're gone
when they vanish, in my hope of change

they took my sense of pride
gave me poisonous words
letting a rush of guilt, racing thru my fragile vains

So I swear I'd kill them all
I'll make them taste my super strength
where I let them in
and choke them out
Never will they laugh again
all they will see is just misery for them
and glory for me

Trying too hard has always been my vice
But it's better than laying on my back and wait for a shift on the perspective
it won't happen naturally
until I believe, the smuts in my hands
is the only answer to my own mistery~

2008-10-20T17:10:00.002+08:00

i
am
tired
of
you.
yes,
all
of
you.
your
breath
stinks
and
i
am
surprised
that
you
realize
it.
but
i
am
shocked
that
you
choose
to
not
do
anything
about
it.
just
as
long
as
you
don't
come
too
close.
i
will
be
ok.

Change, everything you are.

2008-10-16T19:10:00.003+08:00

Instead of viewing yourself as the main story line,

once in a while try picturing yourself as one of many actors on a stage.

Hey, that's a relief.

At least now I know, that

not all eyes are actually on me.

Whew! ;)

Shh, hush now~

2008-10-15T22:41:00.000+08:00

listen.

do you hear that?

(oh! how it tends to skip a beat)

it's your luck changing.

hello :)

O Kegembiraan dan Pengakhiran yang baik! -- Ia adalah Cinta (tanpa beza)

2008-10-15T15:53:00.000+08:00

Ku kan selalu denganmu, Kasih;
Dalam kau bertatih, atau ber-lari,

--

Andai kau jatuh, ku bantu kau bangun.

Sebab Enche Berudu dah jadi Tuan Katak hari ini

2008-10-14T15:33:00.002+08:00

me:
its your day today!
make a wishh

AhFook:
hehe
i wish for a greater good for myself
dan kamu orang semua di rahmati Tuhan
(aku memang tak selfish)

On your birthday, I wish your HDD don't crash because I don't have that much money either!

2008-10-14T02:22:00.002+08:00

Kononnya;

nampak, jumpa, kata, sentuh, pegang, dapat, simpan, jaga.

Kepala hotak.

(Sorry yang lain lain)

Masih Rain and Sun

2008-10-11T03:11:00.002+08:00

Today's rain left me soaking wet.

Sunshine, thank you very very much for your warmth.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.

Rain's pleasant, generally. I quite like it, the sound, the smell, feeling the droplets on my bare skin.
It just so happened that today I was out patting the buffalo (yes), so thanks to dear rain I got splashed all over with muddy water.

*@&#*(&@!!!

So sunshine, I'll say it again, thank you very very much.

2008-10-11T02:14:00.001+08:00

wow

im tired of (always) being the Stronger one.

The Rhyming Song

2008-10-10T16:54:00.003+08:00

They say we don't own the sky.

So rain and sun, you have to share.

Who's willing?

~~Ahh, not us, I'm sure.~~

I am! :)

Thank you.

Euww.

2008-10-09T04:02:00.002+08:00

It was raining, and I was as bright as the sun!

Yet no matter how bright I was,

the rain kept falling down.

Seterusnya;

2008-10-07T21:43:00.000+08:00

1- Selesaikan hidup; bergerak ke Hidup seterusnya.
2- Hadiahkan diri sendiri.
3- Mulakan perkara-perkara penting.
4- Kumpul dua-puluh-ribu. Mungkin akan perlu jadi empat-puluh-ribu, atau tiga-puluh.
5- Selesaikan hidup; bergerak ke Hidup seterusnya.

2008-09-29T10:10:00.003+08:00

kepada yg berkenaan;

you suck for making me wait.

fine, Let Me Be.

but can u imagine severe addiction? b* !

Alasan untuk Hidup

2008-09-22T13:33:00.002+08:00

Mencari erti kasih
dalam tutur seorang bapa
yang kasihnya menolak harta
yang sayangnya menafi rupa
setiap sentuhan satu petunjuk
agar langkah tidak tersasar

Mencari makna kehidupan
dalam dakapan seorang rakan
yang rianya melewati waktu
dan tangisnya bersulam pujuk
mengharap di penghujung jalan
(masih) berpimpin tangan, bersatu rasa

Mencari maksud jiwa
dalam terikatnya sebuah perjanjian
yang menuntut perhambaan diri
pada ilmu yang tidak (pernah) didamba
hingga tersembunyi norma-norma insani
dan hanya tangis mengisi ruang kosong

maka di mana definisi bahagia
bila tiada yang sirna pada kehidupan
namun perlu dimengerti
sudah hilang cahaya yang menyuluh pengertian...

you pissed me off yesterday;

2008-09-22T12:00:00.002+08:00

and the day before, beforer, and beforest.

because you see, there's a thin line that borders

+ joking and being cynical
+ being all friendly and mocking
+ concerned and busybody

you are always the latter.

I just happened to not like you.
Whatever shit that you are trying to scare me out with.
I just happened to hate you, now.

I'm not talking to you;
So you can talk to your own hand.

Si Sponge

2008-09-21T06:50:00.003+08:00

i've watched the sunrise for two days straight now.
and both days with a smile plastered on my face.

conversations, conversations.

for whatever days that are left,
i will be a sponge.
soaking up as much goodness and warmth as i can get.

:)

2008-09-21T01:08:00.004+08:00

when i said yes to you the other day, i meant it.

and when i said no to you last week, i meant no.

it was not meant to be a reverse psychology.

so please..

i know it's not easy

for the last thing you have in you is;

patience.

jangan nak macam-macam eh.

2008-09-19T16:41:00.004+08:00

sorry i am a bitch today.
bt he Clearly started it.

otherwise, i Am nice.

so my pahala puasa = org yg tak puasa.

Asik asik

2008-09-16T04:38:00.004+08:00

Did you know that, my elements went aflutter when your hands were fumbling?
When your hands were fumbling with the spoon.

For the trillionth time; I fell, and it's pretty much all that I do since that person in the pinstripe white t-shirt called, "Hoi, bersiul!" and sent me dreamily up the staircase.

And and, isn't that glow just priceless?

and then, I saw her eyes glow.

2008-09-15T23:18:00.002+08:00

Maybe it's my stupid words,

or Maybe it's my ridiculous action,

or Maybe it's my funny outfit.

Or maybe it is just me.

But somehow,

I get to see her eyes glow today.

Ah, a good thing, especially when you're in the middle of a fasting month! Hehe :D

taken; but abandoned.

2008-09-14T16:02:00.002+08:00

because the hints;
I thought I made it so perfectly clear.
I thought it was as obvious as the blood running in my veins behind my see thru skins.
because I thought you'd understood.

Now, what?
Shall I speak some peculiar foreign language
say, freaking Germany.

Because I can't
And I just won't.

So please, keep me close.

or freaking let me go.

ps: Sila jangan lalu di drive thru McD waktu matahari mencacak!

2008-09-13T02:25:00.005+08:00

if i didnt tell you, then how would you know.

but if i did, i will turn out to be needy, dependant,

even asphyxiating to you.

i dont want you to think of me - that way.

no way, no fricking way.

p.s. but if only you knew, how broken, just how fucking broken, i am.

p.p.s. ru p e 2 nyai n cik B er udu (e k ork ep ala? ) ped ul ikan a ku.

come

2008-09-11T17:05:00.002+08:00

closer.
don't be afraid
for i promise i won't bite.
though such fangs i own
sharp claws and strong bones;

i will do you no harm.

unless...

Paradise

2008-09-10T10:41:00.001+08:00

It was a sudden move that left me confused
You gave me a rush of guilt and pleasure

but you weren't looking into my eyes..
(scared?)
confused as I am?

You still haven't looked into my eyes
'cause if you do
You'll see paradise~

(aku) Menulis perlukan Muse.

2008-09-09T20:39:00.003+08:00

Dan sekarang Muse Tulisan aku sedang dalam misi ke Greek Lama; dalam usaha mencari punca Apokalips Hati - Hati Lelaki.

Kita tunggu apa akan jadi nanti okay?

Raja,

Jangan mencarut lebih lebih. Bulan Ramadhan, tak elok. Hehe.

and now he says..

2008-09-08T19:47:00.006+08:00

please..
i'm sorry.
never had i meant to hurt you.

and all i can think of saying is;

haha..you're funny.

sorry is when you accidentally step on someone's toes.
Not when you crush them with those chunky heels till they bleed.

you should know that by now.

2008-09-07T22:51:00.001+08:00

okay,

i am sad (too) now.

does that makes you feel better / brighter ?

yes?

good.

no, no. dont mention it.

(reminder:)

2008-09-07T21:20:00.002+08:00

go ahead and blow that candle.

and make a wish,

oh, don't forget to thank God.

[just a simple reminder.] :) ah, smiley ini pinjam dari gtalk!

The Emperor's New Robe

2008-09-06T21:45:00.004+08:00

When you do not be yourself, it will eventually hurt (when you do realize it, of course).

I don't wish to sit in the high throne with but my skin, and be the zero of the mighty hall, when the call me Sire.

Get those cartoons out from the old dusty collection. They ought to teach us a thing or two, about another thing or two.

would you like more milk?

2008-09-06T00:20:00.006+08:00

Mentre la mia testa mi dice che dovrei restare il mio cuore mi dice di andare.

Mi aspettavo di più da parte tua

Vorresti più latte?

sì?

'Hey!'

2008-09-05T03:50:00.002+08:00

Move your body,

along with the music.

Oh, it is that simple.

Bulu

2008-09-03T20:07:00.004+08:00

banyak!

di bawah lenganku

di cuping telingaku

di dalam hidungku

dari pusat ke pubisku (tak ku pandang ketika ini)

di atas dan bawah bibirku (kalau ku tulis 'mungil' keterlaluankah?)

lalu ku letak kembali heels itu ke atas raknya..

Langit Aku

2008-09-03T11:40:00.002+08:00

Langit aku runtuh;
aku topangkannya dengan arasy-arasy percaya
tidaklah sempurna, tapi berdiri semula

Langit aku menangis;
aku lubangkan tanah jadi wadi-wadi hidup
tidaklah dalam, tapi menyegarkan

Langit aku berdentum;
aku mainkan irama-irama gembira
tidaklah harmoni, tapi aku suka :)

*nmpk x the cutest smile di situ?

Kalau Kau Terlepas, Kau Memang.

2008-09-03T07:47:00.002+08:00

Oh ,

lihat ke langit .

Ya , sekarang .

Apa yang kau nampak ?

Biru ?

Hitam ?

Ah , begitulah warna hati aku sekarang ! (insert the cutest smiley here)

Boggart in the Wardrobe

2008-09-03T03:34:00.002+08:00

Fear is just an illusion, which we use to label the unknown.

It is not uncommon that we

1. label
2. criticize
3. think ourselves better than

what is alien to us.

Oh beautiful Hearts, why can't we just open up a little bit more and give those green-faced three-eyed hook-nosed creatures a chance?

I'm sure they must have Hearts too; though theirs might be positively of another color.

2008-09-02T23:32:00.003+08:00

semalam petang nurkiah harnom tonton akademi fantasia lepas balik sekolah ngaji.
dan malamnya.

"Mak,kiah nak jadi penyanyi lah mak.boleh kah mak?"
"eh,boleh.nanti dah popular boleh ajak mak berduet.boleh mak test market sekali" balas mak.

esok pagi di sekolah,nurkiah berjaya menjawab soalan fizik ringkas mudah di papan hitam.kembang kuncup hidungnya depan kawan-kawan.

dalam hati.
"aku nak jadi physician lah.fizik ni bukan susah sangat.dapat reka hukum baru mesti popular.hukum nurkiah .sampai generasi depan pun aku popular.

hari lain,
nurkiah tengok orang jual bunga.dia mahu jadi florist pula.ironinya,dirinya perempuan,samalah seperti bunga.mana tahu nanti jumpa kumbang yg metroseksual.nurkiah suka.

lain hari,
nurkiah harnom bosan dengan impiannya yang kurang cool.itupun selepas kawan baiknya menang kategori puisi remaja hadiah sastera kumpulan utusan

"aku nak jadi Rumi"tegas dia buat keputusan.barulah cool,fikirnya.

nota kaki:
nurkiah tidak kenal rumi.dia hanya terbaca biografi di belakang sebuah buku tentang seorang penulis memilih rumi sebagai idola.kasihan nurkiah harnom.

Ahh, Tetapi;

2008-09-02T20:51:00.003+08:00

;si velcro itu senang hati mengutip :)

biar pun benang atau sawang.

indah atau buruk?
bukankah itu persepsi yang subjektif?

biar ;si deadly tinggalkan kau bila dia rasa tidak perlu lagi,
yang pasti,
(jika bukan dia) masih ada yang memerlukan.

hati hati dengan hati!
ahh, tetapi;
dari kejatuhan itu boleh timbul satu kekuatan :)

beautiful but deadly

2008-09-02T20:43:00.001+08:00

dulu i lawa jek.. u pun gunakan i sebaik-baiknya
u tinggal atas i, u menari atas i

then i jugak tlg u perangkap nyamuk2 tu
u pun makan, simpan buat stor atas i

kalau u xselesa, u pun upgrade i
tambahkan luas i, janji hati u puas
i redha jek

tp masalahnya, org xnampak u buruk
org nmpk i buruk, i yg kotor tu

bler i kene sapu, U BUAT RUMAH BARU..

yerlaa.. i kan yang sawang jek tu...

*malu tapi mahu

Sonnet Hati

2008-09-02T20:07:00.003+08:00

hati-hati dengan hati
hati rapuh hati luka
hati-hati dengan cinta
cinta madu juga racunnya

hati mana tidak berbunga
bila hati menjadi dua
hati bilang pada yang suka
'hati lemas kabur jiwa'

hati berat sarat kasih
sudah percaya minda tersisih
hanyut jiwa bersarang cemburu
hati terang jadi kelabu

hati-hati dengan hati yang diusik
salah mengusik, orang pun jelik~

*omg, i takut tgk post org laen!

Jalan yang Mana; (ai) Tolong-lah tunjuk!

2008-09-02T14:09:00.006+08:00

Jika hidup berkalang dengki;

biarpun Tuhan,
biarpun Perempuan,
biarpun Harta Berkoyan-koyan,

Hidup-mu takkan bahagia. Atau tenang. Atau senang.

Mari; berlapang dada selalu.

Maju ke-depan (dengan berbuat baik), dan pedulikan orang yang tertinggal (atau tidak sekufu). Nah, peraturan hidup perlu di-angkat, moga moga semuanya baik baik sahaja.

Kena bantai tulang rusuk?

Halt

2008-09-02T03:41:00.002+08:00

I want this obsession comes to a halt.
A stop.

FULL STOP, okay?

No more "I need you"
"I want you"
"I miss you"

Because I already have one. Haha :)

Yours Truly

2008-09-02T01:27:00.005+08:00

Dear Hearts,

please please do not relate Me with all the Hims and Hers in this world just because they

know how to touch you, say you have pretty eyes, call because they miss your voice, cry in longing for your hands.

Have me, explore me, and keep me only when they are not within reach of your senses and yet you still smile, you still soar.

And then you'll know I'm yours.

Love.

oh, matahari

2008-09-02T01:23:00.003+08:00

if a thing does not hurt, than where is its value?

because as Humans we can be extremely dense,
moronicly thick-headed,
insanely ignorant.

so enters Hurt (oh, Chaos!);
and we are Awakened.

there IS Light within Darkness;
while there is Life, there is Hope.

2008-09-02T00:56:00.000+08:00

no one will know about it.

no one.

because it is;

too heavy for words;

to describe.

it is; too

deep,

it stings.

p.s. Onegaishimasu!

And he said..

2008-09-01T03:39:00.004+08:00

Never had I been untrue to you;

Never had I told lies.

Never had I said no to all your desires;

Never had I disagreed.

Never had I misbehaved;

Never had I said never.

And then he left.

And never had he returned.

And I said;

Never you dare come crawling back to my doorstep.

When I asked him to stay

2008-08-31T19:19:00.002+08:00

I did not think I'd be seeing him, at least for days (or even weeks) to come. When his smile grew wider and wider (and thus more colorful), I could only look back.

Oh oh, I heard that you can't control what your Heart feels, and desires for.

So I'm assuming that it is okay when he passed me by. And with the weight of the moment pressing me down, I guess he might not have even heard me.

And since I can't control what my heart desires for, I could have spoken other words instead.

Hello, Nareem Delina.

(now you have got something) To die for;

2008-08-31T14:41:00.002+08:00

Selamat datang Asmara.

Hari ini saya bangun jam 1.34;- selepas menyambung nonton Dark Knight untuk ke-sebelas kali.

Hari ini saya mungkin akan pergi ke McDonalds dengan Abdul Lula (atau Abd Luls).

Hari ini saya rindukan dia. Dia, bukan Lula.

Oh. Selamat datang darah-darah Baru! mari kita semua tulis apa yang kita rasa (sebetul-betulnya), supaya tiada rahsia; supaya tidak bertopeng-topeng, supaya tidak ditipu-tipu. Untuk pendosa-pendosa di Mataku, 'If I live, I will kill you. If I die, you would be forgiven'

P/S:
Hani, Raja suruh aku update blog, sesuka hati dia. Ajaklah dia tulis sama-sama di sini, baru dia tahu erti tekanan.

When Satan Speaks

2008-08-31T03:29:00.002+08:00

i heard the whisper:

now, go to bed, and never

wake up again.

so i replied; harshly.

i will go to bed,
and i
will

wake up again.

because there are so many people i am going to meet,

there are so many emotions i am going to go through,

and there are so many _____________________________

let Satan do the math.

i am going:
to sleep.

Con tutto il cuore, grazie mille.

2008-08-31T03:08:00.003+08:00

a child drew a heart and colored it red.

why red?
can you tell me?

ah;
malam yang indah.

with all my heart,
thank you.

hello semua

:)